| ok ok ok its been 9 days into da new year so wat haha... i notice that from the list of goals i had to finish out last year... i only did one... -_- im soo slackin haha... well im working on the permit part.. as for college... iono if im doing that anytime soon -_- i decided since i have alot of free time.. that i get back to reading the book i never finished "the purpose driven life" i was suppose to be done wit the book in 40 days since i brought it... which was like acouple of years ago haha... i stopped at chapter 16.... the book has 40 chatpers and ur suppose to read one a day.. then reflect on it through the day... imma try to finish it now ^_^ another goal of mine still... is to fix broken friendship.... i still miss her... i mean in da end she's still family.... |
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| Hello Xanga, Up at 7:27am... actually i've been up since 3... i woke up to something i didnt wanna quite see.. but dats ANOTHER WHOLE STORY haha rite now... i just thought id talk bout my day... Well yesterday (saturday) was a very very good day. Even tho i had like 3 hours of sleep cuz i came home hella late on friday nite and woke up at like 7am to get ready for my youth group's retreat. When i got there... seein all da group members all these together.... something we have NEVA been able to do... usually at meetins or other events we have like 4-6 people and it was always da same 4-6 people... but finally we had MOST of da group there... so about 25 people... but seein everyone there.. smiling.... laughin even tho most of us were tired haha... it was a great feelin... like da feeling you get wen u havent seen a great friend for YEARS den finally do... it was a great feeling.... then the retreat was great too... we got to recharge and get ourself back together and get ready for da much busy year we have ahead of us. I love that group to death... its like my 2nd family... i always have a blast wen im wit them. Which is why im always willing to attend all meetings and events. I just wish everytime we have meetings/events all 25 members would be there... With our retreat done... all da excitement of doing da 11th & 12th graders retreat came back rushin through me. I had soo much fun last year at da 12th grade retreat... and now that da 11th grade retreat is on a different week then da Seattle Basketball Trip.. i can finally go to da 11th... and im soo excited cuz this year im taking a bigger role as the 2nd Emcee... im training to be da Head Emcee for future retreats... even tho i HATE talkin in front of people... i believe wit my humor mixed in wit my exp. and wise side... i can help out alot of young adults who are in 11th and 12th grade. Which for da next couple of years.. will be some friends of mine, since i know alot of kids around dat age group. Which is always a big thing.... i mean talkin infront of kids who are 1-2 years younger den u is scary.. its like English class all ova again. But having a bigger role in this group was my goal for this year. I wanna help out wit as much as i can. MAN im just soo excited haha.. i wish March was next week... haha but ya even tho retreats arent til march... we got alot of other things to do until then... like our Xmas Show we're hosting at our Church. Also the Teachers Xmas party that we're hosting too. PLUS our Snowboarding trip that we're tryin to raise money for. Which would be pretty kewl... goin on a trip wit da whole group.... i know dat would be a great trip ^_^.... PLUS all those meetings we'll have for da 11th grade retreat and da 12th grade retreat.... busy busy... haha K... time to get ready for 9 hours of work >_< grrrrrr and its SOOOOO BORING |
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| I think i have alot of sowwies to give out... i mean not everything was my fault.. but i had some fault... i just got done reading some letters i got from my last retreat when i was a leader... i read the letter that my cousin (lisa) wrote to me... and i guess i was wrong to forget about her and leave her and say all those things i said... me and her has always be close even wen we werent... i rememba wen we were lido... we would always hang out together and talk bout anything... even tho we dont talk... and i know shes mad at me... i still dink bout her.. and pray that shes doing good.... praying that god watches ova her as for my other friends... forgive me for over reacting and doin the things i did... iono wats up wit me lately... but like i said before... im just at the stage where i dink everyone is fake... and i just need sometime to be alone and do things on my own.... I also read a letter my 12th grade sunday skewl teacher wrote to me... she was my partner durin dat last retreat... i forgot everythign that that letter said... but now since i read it... it just got me all sad... cuz in da letter she says how my parents was soo happy and eyes full of tears wen she was talkin to dem bout me... and how she said i was the one to brin hope, love, and happiness bak to my parents... how i was suppose to be da light in their life... and wen she said how my dad.... how hes the type of person who doesnt talk much... but she said wen he talked about me... his eyes was ful of tears -_-.... and all this just hits me cuz i havent been such a great son lately... i havent told dem wat i really wanted to do wit college and pretty much just stay in my room everyday.... i really do wanna do somethign to make them proud of me... I also read all da other lido notes all the retreatants wrote to me... and honestly.. its scary wen people thats ur age sayin they look up to you... i have neva been looked up too before... im usually da one lookin up haha.. but really i rememba all da memories durin those 3 days at the retreat... even tho i didnt feel like i changed anyones lives... i still did... and i know by da letters they wrote to me... many of them were surprised to see a different side of me.. a more serious side... a more emotional side... I havent been da greatest person lately.. and i hope everyone can forgive me... |
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| What sup guys... haven't done much talking lately.. just decided to update on whoeva wants to know... know wats up wit me... Well things haven't been all dat goodie.. but ey im still living... So pretty much... im at dat stage where i dink everyone around me is a fake... dat everyone is just lyin to my face bout everything.. and doin shiet behind my bak... i know some aren't but im so confused dat i dink everyone is fake... which makes me just wanna be alone... like i wanna do things by myself... i just don't know wats up wit me lately... but to me everyone who's close to me is a fake... and its hard to tell who's not and who is... -_- As for my school part of my life... im still scared of college.. but i kinda have an idea wat i wanna do and where i wanna go.. so far my Goal is attend PCC for a year then transfer to UofO... but im still alido on the MAYBE side... i mean UofO seems like a great place.. its hella chill... and i can focus on skewl... but its far from home... and everything... I really do wanna attend dere but a year is still a long time to decide and things mite change.. i mite stay at PCC... who knows Rite now... im pretty much just tryin to find a job... save up for a car... i dink life would be pretty easier on me wen i got my own money... own ride... do things on my own... not needin anyone else... Goals for the rest of da year -Get a Job
-Save up
-Get my permit and license
-Get a Car
-Register for School |
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| Hey my xanga friends... most of dem who are now on Myspace haha... MYSPACE IS KILLIN US... ITS A DRUG!!! haha... jkin but ya decided to head back to xanga and look and read at old entries and just... see whos still here... looks like DUSTIN was here yesterday haha...
wow... my last entries was soo long ago haha... i used to write some long entries... i miss those times though... alot has changed... friendship parted... friendship started... just soo many things... and yet... life is still good... But i do miss going to sunday school... haha seeing all my friends... laughin and havin fun cuz we had nothin to worry about... now we're in the world... worryin about college finals, what we wanan be in life, where to next... i mean im about to graduate from HS (i sure hope so haha) and i dont even have a CLUE wat i wanna be... i mean most likely imma head into da Post Office life haha... but i cant help but sit and wonder... wat other jobs are out there for me... a job the i can LOVE... a job where i can wake up and actually go YES job time.. and not... dam it -_-
As for my social life... Me Dustin and Van are still close... even though we dont hang out all that much anymore... dustins in seattle... vans always jackin off haha jkin... i mean me and dustin still talk online and hes still da only person that i can actually talk about ANYTHING and he wont go "ok minh shut up now" haha... But i guess life comes and things changes... Now i mostly hang wit Kao and Derick... i mean dere not da two i would come to about problems... nothin against dem... but ya.. i mean its kewl me and my cousin (derick) are actually hangin out... we havent been all dis close as cousins back den... hes always workin or wit some girl... haha
As for my youth group life... Youth Spirit... i think im done with that... i mean it was a good learnin exp.. but now that most of the officers are leavin and the president is leavin... i mean ill come back and help wit the group wen needed but i think thats about all... As for Holy Trinity... im stayin with that group as long as i can. I havent been there durin the meetins or events as much as i would like... but i hope things would change and i can have more time for them. The 12th grade retreat is coming up... sooo scared... first year as a leader... and iono how da retreatants are goin to act towards me... since i know most of dem... i mean most of dem are either a year apart of da same age as me... soooo who knows haha...
Well ill add more later.. but i gotta go get ready to go to starbucks ^_^ I feel old... haha goin to starbucks to hang out.. wow haha... |
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